So I guess I find myself at a loss for words... My heart is heavy, my baby is growing into a boy! I know I want him to grow healthy and strong, but I'm not ready for this sweet age to end. I never knew how absolutely blessed I would be by raising this little future knight. I had no idea the struggles and pain it would cause me to release him every day into another phase of trust to my Father and King. Its hard to let my boy "do it himself" and its hard to watch triumphantly as he accomplishes what he sets out to do! I want to hold him and kiss him all the time because I know there may come a day when that's just "not cool". I really wish some days that he could stay my baby forever but I know that's not truly what I want. I know that I don't want to waste time with him! I don't want to waste our precious moments together squandering it away watching t.v. or some other useless task but I feel the hours and days and moments passing me by while I'm being selfish or hoping for more or better when I should be completly satisfied with what God has given me. So, tonight I will just say thank you Father for my shining star, my angel, and after you and Reagan, my reason for getting up in the morning! Thank you for my precious boy! I don't know how in the world you could possibly give your son to die for me, but now more than ever I understand what kind of sacrifice that was and I thank you... I know this may sound like rambling, but thank you.
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