He's A Clown...that Charlie Brown!

Lil' Bob Charlie!


Reading with my Daddy

Lil'? Bob

Getting BIG

Robert Graham is growing and changing everyday. I can't believe how much he's capable of and how he moves. He sees his hands now, kicks and talks in "conversation"... SO big... such a sweet pea-pie!

I also never knew that the love would just grow each day. I can't imagine loving anyone this way more than I love Robert Graham. He is such a sweet, joyful addition to our lives. We thought the puppy made our lives happier and had an effect on our natures... but Lil' Bob definitely adds a sweet sound, a sweet smell, and another look at God's nature. When he smiles, it lights up even our darkest days. When God looks at us, he sees us this way when we belong to him. It makes me feel safe. Knowing that God sees me as His precious child, makes me eternally grateful.

First Thanksgiving

Guess what Robert Graham had for Thanksgiving dinner? That's right! Turkey-flavored milk from his Mommy! Ha! Someone recently asked me if I thought it tasted different with whatever I ate... my answer is, I don't think so!?! Piper has definitely had his delicate sufficiency as well. He ate SO much turkey he's been sick twice! I think it was allergies though. Lil' Bob had a great time getting to know his Auntie Leah and was sad when she left today. Auntie Laura and Grammy are still here. He was also very down because his Papa wasn't able to come on this trip. We all had pumpkin pie without him and it was just very awfully sad. We are all about to "hit the sack" so I'll add pics of Lil' Bob in his Turkey outfit later.

I am thankful for...
Beautiful days of cool breezes and Robert Graham's little hand holding tight to mine
Fall leaves and Robert Graham looking up at me with stars in his eyes
Watching Robert learn and play
God giving Lil' Bob to me and to Reagan
Our church and how accepting they've been of our needs and Robert's needs
Jesus!

Mama Kisses

Snow Baby

Baby It's Cold Outside

We took Lil' Bob out in the snow for a few minutes today to get some pictures of him in his snowsuit! I wasn't sure he would be able to fit in it very much longer, so luckily it snowed early! :) He was not positive as to what to DO exactly with the snowflakes that fell on his "nose and eyelashes"! He was very happy this morning though and did not cry when he got cold flakes on his face. He is such a sweet and generally good-natured baby. It worries me sometimes because he doesn't cry that much!!! He's just very pleasant and happy. Here are some pictures that I promised!

My favorite one

Robert Graham is my favorite baby one!

Pondering

I used to ponder too much and get down in the dumps about stupid things. I guess now I just feel that every time I think I might do this or get somewhat depressed, I look at my little boy and the world just seems right. I know this is sappy, but I feel like God has definitely kept me on this earth for a purpose and I've never felt more at peace about what His will is for me than now.

I've always wanted to be a Mother, and a wife, but until Robert Graham was born I never realized how the "stuff" doesn't even matter. I went to the mall today and thought if I didn't have Lil' Bob it would be easier to shop, however, my final conclusion was, that because I have him, there isn't a darn thing I want! :) I have everything I need. I have almost everything I can think of materially to want. I don't have an official paying job, but I have the BEST job in the entire world. I have the responsibility, but also, I have the opportunity to be a Mother and that is the most wonderful, most satisfying job I've ever done.

Sometimes people ask me if I miss teaching. The answer is two-fold. 1. Yes, I miss the students and the impact that I hope I made on them. 2. No, absolutely not, because I would not trade ONE smile, not one look of happiness, not even ONE tear that comes from Robert for teaching. I wouldn't trade him for a million trillion dollars. I wouldn't trade him for ANYTHING. It's amazing the love that God shows you through your child. I actually see a truly new facet of who God is by being a Mom.

Weird, huh?

My little man

I love my baby one

I'm so excited that Lil' Bob and I will have Thanksgiving visitors this year! YEAH!!! Both my sisters and Grammy will get to see Lil' Bob! :) He is very glad that everyone is coming because he hasn't met his Aunties yet. He is already smiling and enjoying his 3-6 month clothes even though he will only be 9 weeks tomorrow! He is growing like a weed! Grammy may not even recognize him!

We love you all!!!!

When Robert Graham Smiles

When he smiles, it lights up my heart. I can't wait for my sisters to meet this beautiful boy! I can't wait for him to smile at them and laugh, and play! :) He is so much fun!

My sweet baby one

So precious!

Everyone always says that you can never imagine how much you'll possibly love your baby, but until you have one you are skeptical. Now, I totally understand what they are talking about! Even through all the sleepless nights, exhaustion, and poopy diapers all over the best outfits, I cannot imagine my life without this little boy. I would not take back the decision to be a Mommy at all. I can't believe how wonderful he is. It's not just the smell... yes, the baby smell of Johnson's baby wash... it's not just the fact that he depends solely on me... it's not just that my husband helped create him... it's that God has entrusted me with His child, His precious one, and He chose me and only me to be the one to feed him, to love him, and to be his Mommy.

Something else I've been thinking about is those who cannot have children. I know it is solely God's decision, but I wonder why some of us are blessed while others remain barren. I wish to ponder this further in future blogs.

First Days With Lil' Bob

I have to be honest here, our first few days were rough! We celebrated Robert's first days with a lot of anxiety...will he get rid of this jaundice quickly enough, is he eating enough, will he get back up to his birth weight so we can relax a little??? All these questions and more were our thoughts as the days went by and things seemed a little slow.

One thing is for sure, God is faithful, even when we act crazy and lack the faith to even pray.